Tuesday, 25 August 2015

The day I lost my DRIVING LICENSE

So yesterday i lost my license.That i got on the first day of the month of May.Yes i remember the date and that is how much it meant to me.And i was devastated to find out that i lost my license.I don't lose important things.No one should either.

Yea so this is how i managed to lose it.I drove to juhu from malad and came back home with the license in my pocket.It was still there in my pocket.I carried on with the day like i usually would but the license was still in my pocket.I didn't remove it.A few guys came over from the bank,signed a few papers.The license still in my pocket (i believed).Drove to my first school to collect a few documents.License still in my pocket.So i believed.Removed cash from my pocket at the canteen.But didn't suspect the license was no longer there.Removed my phone from my pocket while driving.Reached my building and finally felt my license was no longer there.


I rushed home.Infromed my dad that my license was no longer with me.He was damn chilled out.Well my mom on the other hand got furious.She was wild.Her temper was growing like a volcano which could erupt any moment and cause destruction.I bet when she reads it she would think that i portray her as a villain.But that is how she was.


I rushed down to my car.Searched it like a beggar searching for edible food from trash cans.From the glove box to the mats.Infact my sister even searched under the car.But we couldn't find it.My mom suspected that i must have dropped it while removing cash.So i headed for the school.I even looked around where the car was parked thinking i must have dropped it while removing the car keys from my pocket.I stuff too many things in my pockets!Well i went inside and i wasn't lucky enough.Neither did they find the license near the canteen nor the admin office.I left my number with them hoping they would call me up if they found it in the premises.


I returned home upset.Wondering how could i lose something that important.I wasn't sure if i had a copy of it so that i could apply for a duplicate license.I was a mess.I was stressed out.I told my mom that they didn't find it.And she was annoyed at me for being reckless.Now like every typical mom she started proving how i am good for nothing and how losing the license was a sin that i committed.


To my dismay,for lunch we had chawli (black eyed peas).I am not a fan.And because of this whole fiasco i couldnt ask for something better.I sat there staring at my plate thinking "why do i have to eat this?"And across me sat my mother smirking at me.Now there are people who look amazing while smirking.But her, NO.Her smirk indicated all the anger that was breeding inside her.And her eyes screamed eat this you won't get anything else after what you have done as if she could read my mind.I had no other option than to eat it.


I got up from the table silently.I had just eaten the roti and not the chawli.The chawli floated in the bowl unattended.Till now i had no clue where my license could be.I was confused.I had to leave for college.And just yesterday my mom decided to drop me to college.No other day when our equation is normal does she offer.We didn't talk much through out the 40 min drive.


I still had no idea where it was but i couldn't be upset over it all day long.Being at college just changed my mood altogether.


I came back home.I was happy to find out that we had a scanned copy of the license and we could go ahead with the procedure.I wasn't as stressed out anymore.My sister suggested that i check between the sofas.I still had hope that i could find it.But there was nothing.I just let go of it.I had no hope left anymore.


This morning i was searching for a card to book a room in Marriott for my birthday in my moms room.And in her wardrobe was my license staring at me.I was ecstatic.I questioned my mom like what was it doing in her wardrobe.She found it between the sofa like my sister suggested earlier.


Hope you had a good read.


Wednesday, 20 May 2015

What's happening!

The stress is real.Its slapping me in the face while I am sitting here and thinking its just a pat.

My exams never seem to end.They started on 19th April seemed to end last week.But when I woke up this morning reality seemed to hit me in the face.Exams freaking start again on 5th June.

This schedule is seemingly worse than a levels.Its slow torture that I have to bear.

On 19th April I started appearing for the certification papers of actuarial society UK.Manageable.On 5th may exams for the Indian society began.Tolerable.June 5th freaking semesters.I am losing it.

It's dreadful giving 2 subjects twice in a matter of hardly 10 days.Even more dreadful to study for 2 more subjects for your semesters that you didn't bother to study earlier,well,because it's semesters who cares,certification matters more.

I am aware most of you guys won't understand what I am blabbering.But please pretend to sympathise with my situation. 

They say actuarial science is a tricky subject to study.I say it's only tricky because we as students lose our minds studying throughout the year and never get a break.

I don't remember the last time I had the entire day to myself. Well I actually do.Yesterday.But you get the point.It was before I realised exams start again. 

And it just doesn't end after semesters.Certification exams again start in September with semesters ending in December.

So this morning I tried to start with the two subjects I hadn't studied.Namely economics and finance.Half an hour through reading the economics text book switched over to statistics because it's easier and I know shit in it.Just some kind of self confidence you get when you know everything in a paper.It goes pretty smooth.A 3 hour paper finished in 1.5 hours my confidence with the subject reaches to a whole other level. 

But I promised to myself that I would study economics tomorrow as a fresh beginning but I know I will procrastinate it till the end. 

I don't get the why expand on one simple point.Just beat around the bush to make your answer look big.Being a science student I only know how to stick to the point.Even during thinking skills we were told to write but apparently my brain is very stupid to understand that simple logic.And all you hsc and isc peeps laugh it out.Yes we had a subject called thinking skills.Go on.Its so funny.

But I guess that's it for today.I have to go study again!Study break is over.